I've got a special little man on my hands here. You'd think that having done this baby thing twice before that I'd be a little better at the guess work they require, but he's thrown me for a loop. I had two significant experiences with Beckham yesterday.
The first one was a bit traumatic for both of us and while I won't share all of the details here, I was very abruptly reminded of the benefit of listening to the spirit when raising children. What was a very scary experience could have ended infinately worse had this little baby not been surrounded by Heavenly Beings. He was watched over and protected, which is extremely comforting to me as mother who has a long way to go.
The second was a bit of clarity that occurred sometime after midnight. It's amazing what quiet knowledge surfaces after the house is quiet. Beckham has had some tummy troubles for a few weeks and it became pretty clear last night that the reflux we thought we were dealing with was probably misdiagnosed. The fault is my own as I probably went looking for a label to put on the problem and in turn exacerbated it all together. Between research and lots of prayers, Denten and I came to some new conclusions last night and will hopefully see a more content baby in the next little while.
I had a "thought for the day" land in my inbox sometime a few weeks ago that reminded me that there is always another way to look at every situation. I have taken this to heart with Beckham and have found something to be grateful for in each moment that could easily be quite frustrating. "There is another way to look at this," has been repeated in my mind very often over the last week and it has helped me to see what I am supposed to be getting out of the moment, or what positive I am missing. Beckham is not, so far, the obvious angel child that Seneca has been, but he has a deep connection to my heart and is helping me grow more than I thought was possible. Who knew a tiny little spirit could teach so much? I'm grateful for Beckham today, and for his spirit and his angels that bless my life.
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You would think that two parents creat a child and they would all be the same. And having returned so quickly back to the newborn stage with another, it never seems to take me by surprise that each of these little beings are different in every sense. I hope your little guys tummy feels better.
Well, I'm glad Beckham's safe, and I hope his tummy troubles end soon. I'm so amazed at your self-discipline with the sleep-training thing. And your Costco adventure was a fun read. Did you get a nap afterwards? Whew. Lady, you are busy!
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