I am exhausted; physically, emotionally and mentally. I have so much spinning around in my head that it's driving me crazy. My shoulders and neck are tight and achy and the headache at the base of my skull is screaming at me to lay down. The tears are so close to the surface that I can't see straight. I know I have help with me today because when I open my mouth to talk to my children, the words and tone of voice are sweet and pleasant; patient, even, but I am not feeling it. I've got a little anger, a little frustration and a lot of tired going on.

I've got overwhelming waves flooding through me. I woke up so heavy that the day started off with a good cry. Wondering how exactly we were going to make it through this day. Wishing with all my might that a sick day were an option; a chance to call in and crawl back under the covers. Praying for the strength to accomplish all I desire today and still take care of this family. All but completely losing it when Denten walked out the door this morning.

One thing at a time, that's what my mom would say. Remember that I am blessed beyond belief. Hoping this dark cloud will break up so I can quit crying today. Don't comment, this one's just for me; no sympathy requested, just needing the heaviness to end.