My thoughts: Mother's Day

I just want to take a minute and record some quick thoughts that have been running through my head today. Mother's Day has some significance for me on a few levels.

I am grateful today for my mom. I'm grateful that Heavenly Father knew that I needed her in my life, both when I was younger and now. I came really close to losing her at one point and reflecting on the time between then and now, she has blessed my life more than I can describe. I was not nice to my mom when I was a teenager. Really not nice. She was the epitomy of unconditional love and my gratitude for the way our relationship has evolved is huge. She is my go-to girl and I wouldn't want to be without her. I know not everyone has a wonderful friend in their mother, but she is hilarious, patient and caring and I love her very much.



I also now have the pleasure of being the recipeint of attention of this holiday. I've decided the husbands and/or fathers should really get more credit for this day. My children were wonderful to me today, but they sure didn't do it on their own. I am very aware today that there are so many women who long to be mothers and have not have that opportunity yet. I spent a few years with that ache myself and am sensitive to their hearts. I feel incredibly blessed to have these little spirits surround me every day and know that this is what I'm on this earth to do. There are lots of things I hope to accomplish during my time here, but truly none of them will bring me the inner joy and peace that my children have and will.

I have also been thinking a lot today about Seneca's birth mom and what an amazing gift she gave me. I think the world of her. She is courageous and strong and I couldn't be more grateful for the fact that she had the spirit with her during the time of Seneca's birth. I've wondered if she has ached today to see the beautiful daughter she brought into this world. I have stared at little Senny today and kissed her cheeks and hugged her little body and have been so overwhelmed that I am the one that gets to be with her every day. She is an enormous source of joy for me, I can't help but smile when I see her sweet face. I sent a few new pictures to her birthmom with a little update and find comfort in the fact that she expressed nothing but peace with her decision and is comfortable and confident that her sweet girl is right where she should be.



I am very blessed today.