The title of this post is quite inaccurate seeing as I don’t really know my new reality yet. For the past three weeks we have had some sort of grandparent on board and heaven help us, it ends today.
Denten’s parents left today and there aren’t enough ways to say thank you for all that they and my mom did while they were here. Laundry was consistently taken care of, I didn’t worry about feeding anyone but myself and Stella, and the kids have been occupied with multiple fun field trips and activities. Beckham asked me a few days ago what fun thing they were going to do today. He has come to expect a super fun outing daily and is in for a rude awakening now that I’m back in the saddle. Multiple museum trips, swimming, out to eat, movies, baseball games, the gymnastics gym… it’s been the best stay-cation they could have imagined! and I’ve been spoiled as well… If I wanted to go run errands without any little people, I could. If I wanted to feed Stella at 6 a.m. then climb back into bed for another couple of hours, I did. If I wanted to nap for two hours while my littles were out gallivanting with grandparents, I could. Slap! Reality is back!
Assuming Stella decides to sleep now and then, we should be ok around here. She had a few days working through some tummy issues and I’m grateful that our oils helped today and she seems much happier. Sometimes I get the idea in my head that I’m the mom and she gently reminds me that she was conceived in her own time. She called the shots when she arrived and she is still the one running the show. If that means that I simply need to sit and hold this sweet baby, so be it. If it means that we pace the bedroom at 2:30 a.m., then I try to remember that I probably won’t do this again and these are moments to savor and enjoy rather than get frustrated about. She is already growing and changing and I don’t know how to stop it!
As for the Mister of the family? Well, he spent the beginning of the week in Supai taking care of business and then jetted off to San Francisco for a partner retreat. He’s due home tonight and we might see him for one whole day before work consumes him once again. Maybe Stella can convince him to stick around… she seems to have the most pull around here these days.
So, as you kneel down tonight and have your chat with Heaven, throw a few thoughts up for me- both my sanity and my schedule and my yet-to-be-found ability to manage and navigate life with four little crazies.